Wednesday, September 30, 2009
FCC HCP
Whenever i dun understand or cant visualise the FCC and HCP crystal structures, i take out my chinese checkers game set and play with the marbles haha.
HUMILITY
hmm. i guess its rather important for one to able to understand, and demonstrate humility.
it is not very nice to give ppl replies, though honest, but might be sensed as insensitive or arrogant in a worst-case-scenario.
(but nonetheless i need to rant here AHHHHH)
WAAAA I CHECKED THE ANSWERS FOR MY MATHS, AND I GOT NINE!! WA AND ONE QUESTION WRONG, IS THE GRAPH QUESTION. OMG. ALTHOUGH IM VERY HAPPY WITH 90% SCORE, BUT I FEEL SO WASTED. COS I TOT OF THAT CORRECT ANSWER, BUT IN THE END I CHOSE THE OTHER WRONG OPTION! OH MANZ. HUMS. WASTED SIA IF I HAD SORTED OUT MY THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE GOT 100%! HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE. NONETHELESS IM =DD AND EAGERLY AWAITING MATLAB ANSWERS HOHOHO.
it is not very nice to give ppl replies, though honest, but might be sensed as insensitive or arrogant in a worst-case-scenario.
(but nonetheless i need to rant here AHHHHH)
WAAAA I CHECKED THE ANSWERS FOR MY MATHS, AND I GOT NINE!! WA AND ONE QUESTION WRONG, IS THE GRAPH QUESTION. OMG. ALTHOUGH IM VERY HAPPY WITH 90% SCORE, BUT I FEEL SO WASTED. COS I TOT OF THAT CORRECT ANSWER, BUT IN THE END I CHOSE THE OTHER WRONG OPTION! OH MANZ. HUMS. WASTED SIA IF I HAD SORTED OUT MY THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE GOT 100%! HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE. NONETHELESS IM =DD AND EAGERLY AWAITING MATLAB ANSWERS HOHOHO.
TESTS ARE INTERESTING
hahah yeah today was the first test i had for a REAL module (my first test in NUS == QET) and also the second. two in one day! one afternoon, one night. hohoho. well, i think i like matlab more still. somehow i like the subject the the thought of steven coming up with tricky questions and imagining his cheey face makes me smile. LOL. it is actually a fun thing to do things with the com! and recently, after a bad start, i have grown to be more receptive of this module IT1005.
so the first test came, and i was trying to do the MCQs as fast as possible. but it was tough. being suspiscious and looking out for traps set, i took some time in completing them, and many of which are informed and calculated guesses. hope it works lor. hehe. i am really careless! there are many times i had to review my answer, luckily, cos more than one option was viable. which means i tackled the questions in a wrong manner. o.O but overall i felt quite happy and smiled to myself when i read and saw through some tricks in the questions. haha i hope is not that i 想太多! in the end i could not finish the essay question, but hey, too bad. times up. gotta be fair everyone gets the same duration to do the test man!
hey wait. do everyone have the same time to do the test? NO! wow. impressive how this one guy guy in front of me was writing and writing and writing SO MANY LINES after the invigilator announced the end of the test! okay there are ppl who do so. its common. well of cos i do not, i stop immediately after. but its like, that guy overdid it. too er xin alr la! even when the invigilators were walking ard, he was still writing!! like he only stopped when the TA turned to him and wanted to collect the paper. i was still hoping for her to catch him writing. ppl like these SHOULD BE PUNISHED. =SSSSS
okay moving on, i felt very high after this test becos it was just too exciting. hahaha. like i chiong all the way alr, still couldnt finish. well i could have done faster of cos, but how can i reach optimum everytime!?? after dinner, it was time for the second test, MA1505 10 MCQs! hoho.
hohoho funny. outside the mpsh wen xiang spotted some girl that looked like one of our classmates, mh. ahhaha funny, i din really see the likeness but den, omg when i was looking i saw someone nearby, looked like ps!!! hahhaha. that one damn funny, cos wenxiang (dunno if its cos he too stressed) was laughing like madzzz. boomz! hahaha. so funny suddenly saw two ppl with familiar looking faces LOL.
okay back to the mid terms, at the test i also had to chiong all the way la. and although i got most answers, i wasnt too sure and was still careless here there everywhr! zz i think my std drop alr din used to make so many frequent careless mistakes la. now i always do, luckily its mcq and when the answers look similar but dun match i review my steps and try to find the mistakes inside.
After every test, it was often interesting to observe how some ppl react, like complain, or sigh, or siandiao. or laugh hysterically, go crazy, and meng discuss answer. lol. damn amusing!
and u can see that i, having typed a longggg entry this time, how high i am from the adrenaline rush accumulated from two tests in one day. hohoho. i also dunno why i so happy, not that i felt it was easy hahaha.
i guess its just too interesting =D
so the first test came, and i was trying to do the MCQs as fast as possible. but it was tough. being suspiscious and looking out for traps set, i took some time in completing them, and many of which are informed and calculated guesses. hope it works lor. hehe. i am really careless! there are many times i had to review my answer, luckily, cos more than one option was viable. which means i tackled the questions in a wrong manner. o.O but overall i felt quite happy and smiled to myself when i read and saw through some tricks in the questions. haha i hope is not that i 想太多! in the end i could not finish the essay question, but hey, too bad. times up. gotta be fair everyone gets the same duration to do the test man!
hey wait. do everyone have the same time to do the test? NO! wow. impressive how this one guy guy in front of me was writing and writing and writing SO MANY LINES after the invigilator announced the end of the test! okay there are ppl who do so. its common. well of cos i do not, i stop immediately after. but its like, that guy overdid it. too er xin alr la! even when the invigilators were walking ard, he was still writing!! like he only stopped when the TA turned to him and wanted to collect the paper. i was still hoping for her to catch him writing. ppl like these SHOULD BE PUNISHED. =SSSSS
okay moving on, i felt very high after this test becos it was just too exciting. hahaha. like i chiong all the way alr, still couldnt finish. well i could have done faster of cos, but how can i reach optimum everytime!?? after dinner, it was time for the second test, MA1505 10 MCQs! hoho.
hohoho funny. outside the mpsh wen xiang spotted some girl that looked like one of our classmates, mh. ahhaha funny, i din really see the likeness but den, omg when i was looking i saw someone nearby, looked like ps!!! hahhaha. that one damn funny, cos wenxiang (dunno if its cos he too stressed) was laughing like madzzz. boomz! hahaha. so funny suddenly saw two ppl with familiar looking faces LOL.
okay back to the mid terms, at the test i also had to chiong all the way la. and although i got most answers, i wasnt too sure and was still careless here there everywhr! zz i think my std drop alr din used to make so many frequent careless mistakes la. now i always do, luckily its mcq and when the answers look similar but dun match i review my steps and try to find the mistakes inside.
After every test, it was often interesting to observe how some ppl react, like complain, or sigh, or siandiao. or laugh hysterically, go crazy, and meng discuss answer. lol. damn amusing!
and u can see that i, having typed a longggg entry this time, how high i am from the adrenaline rush accumulated from two tests in one day. hohoho. i also dunno why i so happy, not that i felt it was easy hahaha.
i guess its just too interesting =D
Sunday, September 27, 2009
before u noe it
before u noe it, its over alr! haha yes the mid terms are over tonight. tmr = back to sch! oh mans. time has passed quite fast, and although i had been trapping myself at home most of the time to study i haven really progressed tooo far in terms of mugging. hmm. perhaps thats cos i only have 3 mods that are tested and one is on next saturday which gives me more time to prepare later on.
haha hope i've done enough. hmm as usual i am not the mugger type person
and most of the time i cant understd how ppl MUG. omg. or its just that i dun view my studying as mugging as this magical word has a negative connotation to it. lol
wat i need to work on more is to be more positive towards studying, keep up with the pace and dun lag behind, try to catch a preview of the lectures before going for it and following up stuff that i dun understd. with an open mind, i shld be fine. I hope =)
mugggg
Spotted someone mugging at tampines sports council before 7 am on thursday. too bad my hp camera button had some problem and could not take a photo before the object reacted. this was all i got. (keeping his notes alr sian diao zzzzz)
Uncle spotted mugging, at the mrt platform?!!?
Uncle spotted mugging, at the mrt platform?!!?
nasty
just experienced a pretty awkward, unfrenly, unpleasant, or worse nasty scene. perhaps some ppl work this way, or is used to being like this. but i felt it was a bit over the top. kinda not very nice to behave in that way, given the situation. weird...
which makes me ponder. and wonder if i am like this too, in someone else's mind.
cos more often than not, on hindsight, i feel my actions were not the most appropriate.
which makes me ponder. and wonder if i am like this too, in someone else's mind.
cos more often than not, on hindsight, i feel my actions were not the most appropriate.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
heart of greed
wow just now i decided to be lazy and catch the 38th ep of heart of greed on chn8 9pm.
haha altho i have watched it b4, it is still very very exciting as it is alr towards the end and i was so engrossed and captivated once more. haha. cool.
haha altho i have watched it b4, it is still very very exciting as it is alr towards the end and i was so engrossed and captivated once more. haha. cool.
many things to blog
i had had many ideas to blog abt, but now not in the mood. shall spam something see if i get in the mood to talk abt stuff.
this mid term break is going to be over real soon, and i have not really finished my prep for it. haha. den again, i feel there is not much to really really mug till i drop for. and plus the laziness still in my bones, i take my time again. but its still okay la, just not fast, still manageable.
this is the period when the ppl studying in UK start flying there and it seems like once again, the whole world is going to imperial!! next friday i shall see more. haha. cos jason and jianfeng are flying on that day, and so is ang dun xiang. and according to my spy eyes on fb there are somemore army frens taking that flight. seems like i will meet qt a handful and it is nice to send my blessings to them. (on a night just before my MLE mid terms on saturday zzzz)
and yday when i was going home alone i thought abt certain stuff, like how i feel abt some of my frens. hmm. as always, there are many types of frens one can get. and most of the time after a brief period of interaction u can feel that u two just cant click. it happens. some, with whom u just feel comfortable with, at ease, and able to carry on the convo for long periods of time naturally. den again, there is the grey area. sometimes, some ppl u feel they might be potential leng chang dui xiang, but after some time and getting to know them, they are actually warm ppl.
and as time passes, some of your best friends become good friends, den become hi bye frens and eventually degrade to "strangers" this is sad, but ive experienced much of it. =( but again, with some ppl, even after years of "separation", u are able to connect to easily. this is a very heartwarming feel, the feeling of meeting your lao peng you. i appreciate it very much. and it is not easy to find such ppl. i do hope it will continue this way over many years to come.
even for those with whom i used to be close to but no longer so now (esp those with special reasons) i really do wish them all the best. cos although some thoughts and things i prefer to keep them within me, its not that i no longer care, its just not easy to do so anymore.
=)
u really need to put in effort, in order to keep the friendship going.
and we ought not to take friends, for granted.
this mid term break is going to be over real soon, and i have not really finished my prep for it. haha. den again, i feel there is not much to really really mug till i drop for. and plus the laziness still in my bones, i take my time again. but its still okay la, just not fast, still manageable.
this is the period when the ppl studying in UK start flying there and it seems like once again, the whole world is going to imperial!! next friday i shall see more. haha. cos jason and jianfeng are flying on that day, and so is ang dun xiang. and according to my spy eyes on fb there are somemore army frens taking that flight. seems like i will meet qt a handful and it is nice to send my blessings to them. (on a night just before my MLE mid terms on saturday zzzz)
and yday when i was going home alone i thought abt certain stuff, like how i feel abt some of my frens. hmm. as always, there are many types of frens one can get. and most of the time after a brief period of interaction u can feel that u two just cant click. it happens. some, with whom u just feel comfortable with, at ease, and able to carry on the convo for long periods of time naturally. den again, there is the grey area. sometimes, some ppl u feel they might be potential leng chang dui xiang, but after some time and getting to know them, they are actually warm ppl.
and as time passes, some of your best friends become good friends, den become hi bye frens and eventually degrade to "strangers" this is sad, but ive experienced much of it. =( but again, with some ppl, even after years of "separation", u are able to connect to easily. this is a very heartwarming feel, the feeling of meeting your lao peng you. i appreciate it very much. and it is not easy to find such ppl. i do hope it will continue this way over many years to come.
even for those with whom i used to be close to but no longer so now (esp those with special reasons) i really do wish them all the best. cos although some thoughts and things i prefer to keep them within me, its not that i no longer care, its just not easy to do so anymore.
=)
u really need to put in effort, in order to keep the friendship going.
and we ought not to take friends, for granted.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
stitch
haiyo still haven finish MATLAB. zzzz. too much time wasted alr!! finish it up tmr man.
just now in the afternoon, was feeling sian and unable to concentrate on my work, thus decided to go for a run. been ages since i ran the last time was 6th september at the presidents challenge run.
i head off to a good start in the stadium, averaging two minutes per round which was rather good compared to that in recent times haha. my aim was to reach about 5 km or 12 rounds. however, after only five rounds the stitch came in and by the sixth round i have decided it would be impractical to go further and rick implications. thus i forced a seventh round and stopped. zzzzz.
haha but the timing for 2.8 km with two rounds slow jogging was <17 min, still not bad lol. at least after the run i felt a little more refreshed!
just now in the afternoon, was feeling sian and unable to concentrate on my work, thus decided to go for a run. been ages since i ran the last time was 6th september at the presidents challenge run.
i head off to a good start in the stadium, averaging two minutes per round which was rather good compared to that in recent times haha. my aim was to reach about 5 km or 12 rounds. however, after only five rounds the stitch came in and by the sixth round i have decided it would be impractical to go further and rick implications. thus i forced a seventh round and stopped. zzzzz.
haha but the timing for 2.8 km with two rounds slow jogging was <17 min, still not bad lol. at least after the run i felt a little more refreshed!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
mid term break
its the mid term break, and oh pls, how can i be mugging alr? after wasting the first two days of the break packing stuff and somehow wasting it away as always, i have been clearing my hw first, before proceeding to "mug" or i would rather call it revise and study and practise for mid terms.
ha.
was back at MAF on saturday. and it was a diff experience altogether again. for the past five years since i had joined the family, i have been back at MAF and i would have to say that this year, it was perhaps the least crowded and least hyped up i've felt. perhaps its the rain that threatened to fall detering those half-hearted souls to get their butts in hc, or maybe its just me. the first two years, no doubt it was crazy affair for me so din really need to care abt the rest of the sch lol. third year perhaps so as well. last year, the fourth year, i took a change and hung out entirely with wenxiang and yingjie instead of council peeps, and took a new perspective of MAF. but, at the song and dance i was still ard the councillors and that would have contributed to making it more high. this year, i stuck with my classmates for the whole event and it was another kind of feeling again. haha. of cos the song and dance part, which is my fav, wasnt that particularly enthu but it was still fun. the only thing is that i have no dance partner and had to "share" eljx with tjh. lol. and us being all guys wun know the girls part well. and it would get stuck halfway. thus i conclude that it is impt to get a dance partner before deciding to go to MAF or u wld feel sian diao halfway. =]
i realised that i still rmbr the songs in my heart and most of the dance. the songs are still meaningful, esp those emo like ones like 只为那爱我愿, still feel a little emo and sad when singing them, even though not as strong as b4.
and well, man u won man city! wat a classic this game have to be labelled as! i would just have to say, GIGGS ROCKS!! he really is damn impressive considering his age and his assists, vision and enthusiasm wins MY man-of-the-match award. games like this arent for the faint hearted.
ok dun blog so much, gotta get back to MATLAB assignment woots.
ha.
was back at MAF on saturday. and it was a diff experience altogether again. for the past five years since i had joined the family, i have been back at MAF and i would have to say that this year, it was perhaps the least crowded and least hyped up i've felt. perhaps its the rain that threatened to fall detering those half-hearted souls to get their butts in hc, or maybe its just me. the first two years, no doubt it was crazy affair for me so din really need to care abt the rest of the sch lol. third year perhaps so as well. last year, the fourth year, i took a change and hung out entirely with wenxiang and yingjie instead of council peeps, and took a new perspective of MAF. but, at the song and dance i was still ard the councillors and that would have contributed to making it more high. this year, i stuck with my classmates for the whole event and it was another kind of feeling again. haha. of cos the song and dance part, which is my fav, wasnt that particularly enthu but it was still fun. the only thing is that i have no dance partner and had to "share" eljx with tjh. lol. and us being all guys wun know the girls part well. and it would get stuck halfway. thus i conclude that it is impt to get a dance partner before deciding to go to MAF or u wld feel sian diao halfway. =]
i realised that i still rmbr the songs in my heart and most of the dance. the songs are still meaningful, esp those emo like ones like 只为那爱我愿, still feel a little emo and sad when singing them, even though not as strong as b4.
and well, man u won man city! wat a classic this game have to be labelled as! i would just have to say, GIGGS ROCKS!! he really is damn impressive considering his age and his assists, vision and enthusiasm wins MY man-of-the-match award. games like this arent for the faint hearted.
ok dun blog so much, gotta get back to MATLAB assignment woots.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
sucky feeling
OMG im feeling so damn sucky and stressed and tensed up!!!! =(((
it sux. wa i have two assignments due this week and i have just started working on GEK today, and EG is not done YET OMGGGGGGGG. JIALAT ALR LA....
just now i was doing GEK which i tot would be easier. turns out it really sucked and i could not get the answer readily from the website they gave, so i had to give my own input most of the time. and that leaves me unsure of the answer.
and EG is nowhr done im like suffocating and dying alrrrrrrrrrrr.
once again, its all down to the pt of procrastination and not starting early. i hope i can learn finally this time. i NEED TO LEARN MY LESSON.
if it is any consolation at all, i just received my lab03 and its 100. ha.
it sux. wa i have two assignments due this week and i have just started working on GEK today, and EG is not done YET OMGGGGGGGG. JIALAT ALR LA....
just now i was doing GEK which i tot would be easier. turns out it really sucked and i could not get the answer readily from the website they gave, so i had to give my own input most of the time. and that leaves me unsure of the answer.
and EG is nowhr done im like suffocating and dying alrrrrrrrrrrr.
once again, its all down to the pt of procrastination and not starting early. i hope i can learn finally this time. i NEED TO LEARN MY LESSON.
if it is any consolation at all, i just received my lab03 and its 100. ha.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
not a good day.
hmm.
todays not been a very good day at all.
in the midnight had this unnecessary disagreement cum cyber quarrel somehow.
den in the morning till afternoon still feeling the sianess. do matlab do so long! do until now den finish. siala. and it wasnt helped a weeny bit by the score of 83 i got for my lab02, that i just checked today. zz. some parts i really dunno why he marked me wrong but now that he's gone, its hard to me to trace also. perhaps i will ask around or ask the lecturer next week in lab lesson. hmm.
now, i have yet to start on my MLE tut AT ALL and my research for EG1413 position paper. needless to mention all the other kinds of things i have not been catching up with: doing assignment for GEK and EG. reading and revising lectures. and next few tuts to come. OMG. just decided to come here and let it out a bit and to calm myself down too.
hums.
i need some boost.
some push.
todays not been a very good day at all.
in the midnight had this unnecessary disagreement cum cyber quarrel somehow.
den in the morning till afternoon still feeling the sianess. do matlab do so long! do until now den finish. siala. and it wasnt helped a weeny bit by the score of 83 i got for my lab02, that i just checked today. zz. some parts i really dunno why he marked me wrong but now that he's gone, its hard to me to trace also. perhaps i will ask around or ask the lecturer next week in lab lesson. hmm.
now, i have yet to start on my MLE tut AT ALL and my research for EG1413 position paper. needless to mention all the other kinds of things i have not been catching up with: doing assignment for GEK and EG. reading and revising lectures. and next few tuts to come. OMG. just decided to come here and let it out a bit and to calm myself down too.
hums.
i need some boost.
some push.
sux.
well. thought it could be happy, sleep early. wake up early.
now damn sian diao. little emo.
eh, how shld i put it. hmm i resisted talking abt it precisely cos i know u wun like it if i talk abt it. so i din say anything much wad. okay that (im trying to ctrl myself on blah blah blah) part is abt this. cos u dun like to hear thus i dun wanna enter that topic.
den u automatically talk more and feed me info of cos i'll wanna find out more right. and since u are the one who started talking abt it i presummed u are fine with it. and i really just talking abt it.
i totally understd the part when u said it was weird. cos i understd the situation u are in. cos of the certain chances its like scary.
but if u wld stop thinking that i am despo i think it will all be fine. i only act like that, and speak for the fun of it and to create new topics and keep the mood. now it seems to have totally backfired cos more and more arguments are rising.
well, sometimes i dun understd why cant it be discussed with an open mind.
its just irritating things like this happen la. WALAO.
now im pissed off with myself for creating such trouble but also pissed at this situation it just sux. dunno why.
i dunno lah. i thought i deserved better. after all this. well, it always happen to me somehow. i feel under appreciated. is it becos i overestimated myself, or is it that i demanded too much. or is it just that some ppl just dun give a damn abt certain things.
of cos i hate myself for spoiling it again.
i say something deliberately to achieve the effect. im not requesting for it or asking for something to be done. i say it and den laugh over it so its like jkjk. dunno why must be interperated in such a way.
i dunno. cant describe it better.
i cant hate u, i cant hate myself. i dunno. its just a weird weird situation. its like i think and oh man im in the wrong, but somehow im not that wrong also. i always push the blame to myself once something like this happens. its hard to bear.
sux.
now damn sian diao. little emo.
eh, how shld i put it. hmm i resisted talking abt it precisely cos i know u wun like it if i talk abt it. so i din say anything much wad. okay that (im trying to ctrl myself on blah blah blah) part is abt this. cos u dun like to hear thus i dun wanna enter that topic.
den u automatically talk more and feed me info of cos i'll wanna find out more right. and since u are the one who started talking abt it i presummed u are fine with it. and i really just talking abt it.
i totally understd the part when u said it was weird. cos i understd the situation u are in. cos of the certain chances its like scary.
but if u wld stop thinking that i am despo i think it will all be fine. i only act like that, and speak for the fun of it and to create new topics and keep the mood. now it seems to have totally backfired cos more and more arguments are rising.
well, sometimes i dun understd why cant it be discussed with an open mind.
its just irritating things like this happen la. WALAO.
now im pissed off with myself for creating such trouble but also pissed at this situation it just sux. dunno why.
i dunno lah. i thought i deserved better. after all this. well, it always happen to me somehow. i feel under appreciated. is it becos i overestimated myself, or is it that i demanded too much. or is it just that some ppl just dun give a damn abt certain things.
of cos i hate myself for spoiling it again.
i say something deliberately to achieve the effect. im not requesting for it or asking for something to be done. i say it and den laugh over it so its like jkjk. dunno why must be interperated in such a way.
i dunno. cant describe it better.
i cant hate u, i cant hate myself. i dunno. its just a weird weird situation. its like i think and oh man im in the wrong, but somehow im not that wrong also. i always push the blame to myself once something like this happens. its hard to bear.
sux.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
挨夜
its normally not my style to 挨夜, i usually need to sleep at a certain time or for a certain period of time. like for exams and stuff i cannot chiong all the way without sleep one lor. gotta sleep cos i believe no good is done if i ying ying dun sleep and zombify urself the next day.
lol but these four days i have been 挨ing damn a lot la. friday send yingjie off at airport, sleep at about 2am. saturday morning woke up at 6am, went to jurong island for a tour till about 4pm, stay in nus library attempting to do work. den went to karin's bday party, cam back home abt 12 mn alr and slept at 2am again. woke up at like 9 plus to try to do tut but alr VERY VERY TIRED and the maths keep doing wrongly or cant get answer!! zzz. den near 4pm went to the presidents charity run (4.5 km) and after dinner, reach home at about 8 pm. at night after chionging maths went on to start on yingjie's video for her bday and slept at 2am again. haha. morning wake up at 730. last night worse, had to chiong ALL THE WAY since her bday today. slept at like 340 am.
hohoho. jialat sia super lack of sleep, sometimes will feel restless but overall still okay la. not used to it sia, for such an extended period and also not for hw haha.
SLEEP TONIGHT! hope i gain some energy HAHA.
lol but these four days i have been 挨ing damn a lot la. friday send yingjie off at airport, sleep at about 2am. saturday morning woke up at 6am, went to jurong island for a tour till about 4pm, stay in nus library attempting to do work. den went to karin's bday party, cam back home abt 12 mn alr and slept at 2am again. woke up at like 9 plus to try to do tut but alr VERY VERY TIRED and the maths keep doing wrongly or cant get answer!! zzz. den near 4pm went to the presidents charity run (4.5 km) and after dinner, reach home at about 8 pm. at night after chionging maths went on to start on yingjie's video for her bday and slept at 2am again. haha. morning wake up at 730. last night worse, had to chiong ALL THE WAY since her bday today. slept at like 340 am.
hohoho. jialat sia super lack of sleep, sometimes will feel restless but overall still okay la. not used to it sia, for such an extended period and also not for hw haha.
SLEEP TONIGHT! hope i gain some energy HAHA.
明天以後
haha even though i heard this song qt some long time ago, maybe abt one year ago, but im in love with it now. HAHA.
Gummmmmmmmmmm
HAHAHAH so funny. i forgot my youtube account or maybe i din really have one so i went to create another one just now. i tried mihiak, usernam taken. Gummm also taken.
Gummmm
Gummmmm
Gummmmmm
also taken! haha i cant rmbr how many m's i typed before it was available but it is just so funny. lol. so popular sia. Gummmmmmmmm haha wad kind of username is this.
Gummmm
Gummmmm
Gummmmmm
also taken! haha i cant rmbr how many m's i typed before it was available but it is just so funny. lol. so popular sia. Gummmmmmmmm haha wad kind of username is this.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
i need to be nice again.
haha. i changes my msn nick to this yday.
it has really been a long long time since i recall last being nice. real nice. i think i've grown more selfish more sarcastic and more insensitive over this period of say two to three years? i hope to change things and be nice again.
haha sounds lame. i guess its not. cos i like to be nice. the feeling is great. haha my greatest joy is derived from being able to make ppl laugh and to be nice to them. but its qt distant still.
why do i have such thoughts? well, its not a sudden thing, have been thinking abt it over some time. using sarcastic remarks and being lame is one of my trademarks now, but thats not wat i truely am (i hope) or want to be. thats why i think i am easily misunderstood. cos i am lame ppl think im not serious abt certain stuff and cos im sarcastic or speak with opposite meanings i may be perceived as rude/ not so frenly. in addition, i have been nua and lazy these days that i sometimes dun bother to do nice things alr. which is S.A.D.
if i think, but i dun do, no pt also. so i guess i have to start real soon.
two days ago, i did something nice and i felt =D. haha, good for a start.
well, it was raining when we needed to move to LT32. However, only i had an umbrella with me and minkhai and weiquan did not bring. so we had to share! three persons to one umbrella wasnt very effective!? den in front of us, there were three girls without umbrellas and they were kinda getting wet. i said to minkhai, who was holding the umbrella, let them use la! but of cos, its not very normal for someone to do that and he hesitated before handing the umbrella back to me lol. den we tried to walk another distance with 3 in 1 umbrella and it still sucks as we are walking damn slow plus we are still getting wet.
soon, the two of them gave up and decided to zhi ben to the LT instead. haha. and i, holding the umbrella all to myself, walked a distance before finally deciding, hey, its time to make a move. so, i approached the last of three ladies (the other two walked faster ahead)and asked her if she was going to LT 32, den handed over my umbrella and zoomed off to the LT first. later on den i waited for her at the top to get my umbrella back.
okay i know i was a bit late to offer she was alr wet from the rain. but then, its a good start i suppose. at least i stepped out and did wad i felt i ought to do. haha. likes. and from then on, i need to move forward.
talking abt thinking: hey its time to make a move, i think i need such courage and pushing factor and force behind me more frequently. i need to think this way and do things that are stuck there halfway ie undecided and go for it. that day damn lame. was at the bus stop and then this packed bus came and the passengers in front were trying to squeeze their way in, but there was still space at the rear of the bus. they just wouldnt move in! sucks right? this situation is common la. den again, how many times do u actually see someone saying, hey can u move in? rarely. most of the time, you look at me, i look at you, like its always the other person's responsibility to move or do something abt it! so i thought, hey its time to do something.
i was still at the bus stop and i went near the back of the bus and TRIED to signal some of the passengers to move but apparently, either i wasnt obvious enough, or they thought i was crazy, or they could not be bothered. well, i was still a bit embarrassed thus i wasnt sure of my actions either. today i made a sign saying PLEASE MOVE IN on an A4 size paper. hahahha not sure if i will get the chance to use it, but lets see.
back to the topic, i need to be nice again. i hope i rmbr and improve by the day, to be a better person than i was the day b4.
it has really been a long long time since i recall last being nice. real nice. i think i've grown more selfish more sarcastic and more insensitive over this period of say two to three years? i hope to change things and be nice again.
haha sounds lame. i guess its not. cos i like to be nice. the feeling is great. haha my greatest joy is derived from being able to make ppl laugh and to be nice to them. but its qt distant still.
why do i have such thoughts? well, its not a sudden thing, have been thinking abt it over some time. using sarcastic remarks and being lame is one of my trademarks now, but thats not wat i truely am (i hope) or want to be. thats why i think i am easily misunderstood. cos i am lame ppl think im not serious abt certain stuff and cos im sarcastic or speak with opposite meanings i may be perceived as rude/ not so frenly. in addition, i have been nua and lazy these days that i sometimes dun bother to do nice things alr. which is S.A.D.
if i think, but i dun do, no pt also. so i guess i have to start real soon.
two days ago, i did something nice and i felt =D. haha, good for a start.
well, it was raining when we needed to move to LT32. However, only i had an umbrella with me and minkhai and weiquan did not bring. so we had to share! three persons to one umbrella wasnt very effective!? den in front of us, there were three girls without umbrellas and they were kinda getting wet. i said to minkhai, who was holding the umbrella, let them use la! but of cos, its not very normal for someone to do that and he hesitated before handing the umbrella back to me lol. den we tried to walk another distance with 3 in 1 umbrella and it still sucks as we are walking damn slow plus we are still getting wet.
soon, the two of them gave up and decided to zhi ben to the LT instead. haha. and i, holding the umbrella all to myself, walked a distance before finally deciding, hey, its time to make a move. so, i approached the last of three ladies (the other two walked faster ahead)and asked her if she was going to LT 32, den handed over my umbrella and zoomed off to the LT first. later on den i waited for her at the top to get my umbrella back.
okay i know i was a bit late to offer she was alr wet from the rain. but then, its a good start i suppose. at least i stepped out and did wad i felt i ought to do. haha. likes. and from then on, i need to move forward.
talking abt thinking: hey its time to make a move, i think i need such courage and pushing factor and force behind me more frequently. i need to think this way and do things that are stuck there halfway ie undecided and go for it. that day damn lame. was at the bus stop and then this packed bus came and the passengers in front were trying to squeeze their way in, but there was still space at the rear of the bus. they just wouldnt move in! sucks right? this situation is common la. den again, how many times do u actually see someone saying, hey can u move in? rarely. most of the time, you look at me, i look at you, like its always the other person's responsibility to move or do something abt it! so i thought, hey its time to do something.
i was still at the bus stop and i went near the back of the bus and TRIED to signal some of the passengers to move but apparently, either i wasnt obvious enough, or they thought i was crazy, or they could not be bothered. well, i was still a bit embarrassed thus i wasnt sure of my actions either. today i made a sign saying PLEASE MOVE IN on an A4 size paper. hahahha not sure if i will get the chance to use it, but lets see.
back to the topic, i need to be nice again. i hope i rmbr and improve by the day, to be a better person than i was the day b4.
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