Saturday, November 12, 2011

popularity index

you know,

when you suddenly wanna do something, something that you really want,

the next step is to find someone to accompany you,

and the search is so difficult,

you never knew it was,

this is when,

reality strikes you and you know,

your popularity index is really not that good yaa?

girls

is it that im slower (as always) and it finally comes to the stage where we all hold our hands up and say: okay i really dont understand girls.

haha before this year or so i still think im pretty fine at understanding them, time only showed otherwise! hais.. i cant seem to find the best way to handle it.

decision making

Decision making is not always about making the right or wrong decision.
Sometimes it's just about making a decision.

stupid man

man, a stupid animal. 

we spend so much time thinking, caring about people who we care about, wishing that they would care about us as much as we do to them. we always try to engage them, talk to them but they always seem to be less interested. then we start to feel that we are irritating to them.

then when others show some care for us, we are scared. becos we dun care as much about them as they do for us. sometimes we think too much and then we restrict our reciprocation. and even think they start to get irritating at times we even wish they dun care so much for us.

we are just going nowhere.

Friday, November 11, 2011

art and aesthetics

well all along, for all reports, presentations and such, i have always believed that aesthetics form a very big and important role. The person marking these assignments or listening to this ppts surely have had to go through so so so many very similar content by the many students and thus they will be bored by the content and things like that. of cos, this isnt only about marks, all along in life and other aspects i've placed emphasis on aesthetical value. who doesnt love something that looks pretty and gentle on the eye?!

and so whenever possible, i'll try my best to make things standardised, look pretty etc. for example, i have specially designed 3 of the not so many ppt slides that my grps in NUS have used, and although they arent spectacular, i believe they are pretty good! at least pleasing (to me) ya. haha. well most of the time either the tutor gives a very general feedback or just says "well done" for the group, but nv really speaks of their view on the aesthetics that i worked hard on! hahahha.

today for lab ppt, karthiga was really nice to comment on this part of our ppt! and i think she kinda liked my cute little pictorial flowcharts and stuff and generally said that our slides were good (: that really made me feell soo happy! haha my group mates all gone crazy after hearing these positive comments cos we had been preparing quite a lot and we were thinking how she might kill us and ask hard questions or stuff liddat. lol. turns out she said she liked our ppt very much yayy.

no matter how much she really meant it or she was just trying to be nice to everyone, it still made a lot of difference. for the first time my emphasis on aesthetics were actually proven and acknowledged! thats great =D and i hope she meant it too. now i cant rmbr what she said exactly and maybe there wasnt much emphasis on my pictures, but the overall idea that she acknowledges the things in ppt slides that i always look out for is very heart warming.

i still find my picture very cute! hahaha.. beautiful things ought to be appreciated (: and shared.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

ntj song

ntj ntj ntj
ntjjjjjjj
ntj ntj ntj ntj ntj
nnttjjj
nnnn
tttt 
jjjjj jj

if there was an ntj song, i would so sing it now. again and again.


why. why must u gimme ntj. its a torture.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

group dynamics

its really difficult to manage group dynamics. esp when there is no one that is trying to, or no manager. everyone have their own styles and i guess they must be right to say that there are bound to be clashes while working tgt. members have different capabilities, different views, different priorities, different attitudes etc.

it is true that it is very hard to find a group of ppl that u can work with good productivity and a good experience. bounded very much by experiences (academic) w/in the schools, this is indeed relevant to me. last time in sec school/ jc it was still slightly better i guess. maybe with the higher level of tension and focus on grades in uni, things get a little worse.

in a group, i normally dun assume the leading role. i must keep myself in the loop, updated and understand the overall progress and direction of the team, but im not good at things like creativity in generating brand new ideas, or to push for deadlines and be strict abt it cos i dun have very high efficiency myself. i think i work best with ppl who all put in effort, and are able to communicate. some ppl say 遇强则强, but for me when there are other team mates who are "better" in the sense that they are more enthusiastic, are smarter/have better abilities (or act as if they do), i'd take a step back. when the team's rather cui, i'd step up more. its also important for me to enjoy the company of these people and not feel uncomfortable w em.

this is also likely due to the fact that i see being flexible and 随和 as very important qualities in a person. i dun like ppl who are too strong headed and always insist that they are right, or that their way is the best way of doing things. of cos, i certainly have times when i behave like this, but i think its fair to say that its not v frequent, and i do take other ppl's views into consideration always, unless im really strongly against it/ know that the other party is hundred per cent wrong for sure.

i know that in a group, ppl dun normally see me as a big asset, and there are many times i know im kind of under-contributing. and i dun like the feeling. im not a leech. but sometimes, i put human relations above work. under certain circumstances, the setting could be set in such a way that i cant possibly do too much without having little backfiring mechanisms acting against me here and there.

having a few recent experiences, i think that it is really important to manage group dynamics. in a group, everyone should be engaged and respected. of cos, respect is not a right, its a privilege. but however, i believe there should be effort to make sure ppl are not left out completely unless they really do not give a damn. in that case, giving them up could be more excusable. it is important for everyone to be in the loop and everyone knowing the progress, the overall picture. its so difficult to do it, though.

that said, a group can be built slowly over time and after time, ppl start to understand each other's working style much better and also, in building a team, there should be members possessing different qualities and expertise, and tgt they will make a great team. human relations are such interesting areas of research, and i really love observing and taking note of such stuffs. (and rmbring it for 10 years perhaps hahaha LTM ftw)

这几天你在那个城市天气一定晴朗 因为你就是个太阳