POTD 31-03-10

wahaha found this photo which i took last year, had lunch at Fish & Co express during lunch break when i was still working at Messier. it was pretty cool! taste was not bad too.

POTD 30-03-10 (猜猜猜)

POTDCCC 006

Hint: appeared on my blog b4!

how much

how much you mean to me,



and how much i mean to you.

ammm kayyy teeeee

ammmm kaayyyy tteeeeee



frustrated.
anxious.
nervous.
lost.
suffocated.
sian-ed.
irritated.

POTD 29-03-10

hahaha seeing double.

POTD 28-03-10

the book that never reached its destination

two years ago

suddenly, i recall

its hard to communicate

nowadays when i find it hard to communicate, i will just shut off. i think thats pretty bad. but im not in the mood to adapt and change. and im very easily annoyed by other ppl's actions and views. oh man. im tending towards seeing the bad side of ppl rather than the good.

i cant stand it.

that brings me back to another issue which i have all along wanted to talk abt, but due to time constraints i shall not talk abt it now, which is the idea of friends.

when u have different opinions and even strongly dislike what the other party does/behaves like, should you
A) Stay away from him. since u two cant click den probably u wun maintain a good relationship anw.
B) Accept him for who he is - your friend.

i had spent a substantial period of time pondering over this.. maybe i can blog abt it another time, or hear wad my audience views are.

btw, im swayed to the A side.

breezy.night.

hours ago i had my lunch alone at the coffeeshop near my hse since everyone at home was out for dinner. i would definitely have bought packet lunch back home as i dun like to eat alone, esp at a coffeeshop. however i was in the mood to relax and eat alone felt fine for me, thus i went ahead.

this is the first time ever in my life i went to a coffeeshop and sat there alone, having a meal! haha. i think it was a good night to do so. having wasted some time with distractions and also some sianness and stress, it was good to spend some time alone. being alone at home is another thing all together. it was an enclosed space and a very familiar environment. it has really been qt long since i enjoyed being alone and enjoying a slow walk.

with a night breeze of cos. perhaps its becos its alr 8pm plus so there isnt much heat ard. haha. so i took my time, had dinner, and after that another stroll around the neighbourhood. it felt really good and refreshing! walking ard letting the food digest a little and den taking in the newly renovated areas and wind.

i even bumped into my ex teacher from dhs. haha altho i have seen her ard qt a number of times as she lived sorta nearby, i would never have expected, to bump into a teacher, IN THE MARKET. ahha and it was at the closed stalls area when i saw here.. funny sia.

later on i continued walking/crawling and den i spent some time in the playground.. i realised i have not been on a playground for a long long time. haha. and also did some pull ups and surprised i could still do about five lol.

i should spend more time like this. it enables me to slow the pace down, think about stuff and relax.. u should try it too (:

Talking to robot

i was talking to a robot.

or maybe ok man:

POTD 27-03-10

hahaha nice log. im running out of limelight even after these stales i hope its enuff to catch the bbb mouse! i missed three alr!

some time

its been some time since i last smiled to myself like this, and im doing so again now (:

im such a silly gummie.

POTD 26-03-10

zebra (:

POTD 25-03-10

when a few ppl chop seats for many ppl =XX

POTD 24-03-10

thursday CCA-day in sch.

(aka playing donkey during break LOL)

POTD 23-03-10

four in a row! pleasant news amongst my long busy night settling my mkt indv assgn.

POTD 22-03-10

my new baby (:

POTD 21-03-10

im sick. argh easily down with sore throat nowadays. ):

POTD 20-03-10

FINALLYYYY! (:

thank you, for loving me

Caught the movie with ben eric and gene on thursday night and surprisingly everyone blogged abt it lol, maybe we have no lives and once something slightly more lively happens we have to blog abt it haha. anw i enjoyed the movie and i love the music! as it just brings me back to the time i played the game, but i cant seem to find the soundtrack which i like the most. nonetheless this is one of the familiar music from layton.

i think the there was a very intriguing line in the movie that touched me and i felt there was more meaning to it than wad the movie had brought out of it. cos it was not the zhong dian that they protrayed, i felt i should bring more attn to it and share with u guys.

when Mirena was about to leave the world, she said to her dad a few lines. after the movie ben referred to the sentence when she said something like when you think of me i'll always be there, this did not strike me as much cos it was kinda common.

wad i liked was the line, "Thank you for loving me." This is really touching if u think more abt the meaning it encompasses. u have probably thanked ppl for helping u with things, events and stuff, thanked ppl for a date, their company, their support through tough times. lovers tell each other how much they love each other, perhaps, but i dun think it is common to thank someone to have loved you, but i feel i can relate to this very well/much.

sometimes, the pure act of loving someone is noble enough, if not more noble than real tangible actions. cos as i believe, wholeheartedly doing something would be touching, and i guess, to love someone wholeheartedly, be it your parents, your children, your family, your frens or your other half, deserves even more gratitude.

and so i say, thank you, for loving me (:

爆点连连

Friday 19 March 2009 was a very long day for me. To sum it up, it was a day full of events (rare after i entered uni) and imptly, coincidences. Lemme try to give an account of the day now, but firstly,



WARNING: names are changed to protect their identity and no questions would be entertained with regards to the identity of these ppl. read it and leave it. haha.





The day started as per normal with me going to sch with watermelon for the morning lecture at 8am. it was normal only up to the pt when we reached clementi interchange and watermelon asked if i ...



爆点1

... knew abt the release of CN midterms the night b4! WAHA! i din know of cos. i was out on thursday night with three other idiots (LOL) catching the layton movie and reached home at abt 11 plus, and i din on my com nor check ivle and stuff. and i would have expected some ppl to sms me if they knew abt such things, but apparently not so. so i was "nervous" and actually excited haha so when i reached sch i whipped out my ipod touch and boomZ. ivle gradebook time!



and when i saw my score i was like totally stunned and 莫名其妙！hmm (read on at ur own risk) i think i did all the mcqs wrongly and one chunk of the second qn was left undone, and it was improbable that my calculations were all correct as evident in the tutorials when somehow there would be mistakes even if i knew how to tackle the problem.



and more significantly, i had thought abt the test in the prev week and 放话 that i was likely to fail, and in the end i got a very decent grade la.. i felt so bad, like wad SOMEONE said of me that i was FAKE. but truthfully, i wasnt fake!! it was real wad. if i knew how to do all the qns i would say such things, but i had been stuck at solving qn two and with the "easiest" mcqs wrong, i felt that i wasnt gg to do well. i guess im really qt blesses with exam luck. and also, the marking was done with moderation definitely. it was obvious.



anw after this i know i will think thrice b4 fang-ing hua again next time. i msged carrot and cucumber abt it as well and really felt bad cos i was just saying that i would likely fail this test just the day b4.





so the happy + feel bad morning continued and after maths lecture i had two subject pools over at business and thus i went over to biz canteen and ...



Coincidence 1

... met one of my PCs in the canteen.. den i went to my subject pool room and ...



Coincidence 2

... met bai and delin there as well..



haha okay so i continued with my surveys and den after that there was another one. i left sch at abt 1045 maybe to move on to collect my laptop which i sent for repair at the hp service center near AH. after collection i decided to spend some time roaming ard before going to ikea for lunch, so i took a bus down to queensway shopping center lol. i kinda shopped ard and looked at some bags since i want to buy new bags!!! haha.. also went over to anchorpoint and shopped a while but there wasnt really anything that interest me and i was qt tired by then alr.



so i headed back to ikea and thought of having lunch thr but it was flooded with ppl, thus i went to grab a hotdog and a cone downstairs after helping durian buy a fake flower from ikea. after i headed back to sch, i met up with monkey to collect the chem eng tshirt and ...



Coincidence 3

... bumped into tan.



the tshirt was really disappointing and i felt it was like worse than many class tshirts that ive seen.. sigh. that aside we went to engine canteen for lunch and ...



Coincidence 4

... met cucumber, and carrot and tomato.



den after lunch i went to bustop to take shuttle bus to sci and ...



Coincidence 5

... wth its cucumber and carrot AGAIN. lol.



haha we moved on to sci for lecture and i wanted to contact durian to pass it the flower it got me to buy. den durian asked if wanna go eat dinner so i agreed and then after lecture ended i headed over to sci bus stop to take bus to central library and then ...



Coincidence 6

... i saw guava! haha it was also heading towards central lib so we took bus over tgt. haven seen it for some time and it was qt rare indeed.



so met up with durian and we went over to kr terminal to take 10 to vivo. in the journey i also saw two other frens la lol sometimes gg to other facs i meet more ppl den in engine lols... and when the bus finally came we boarded it and sat down only to realise that OMG...



爆点2 + Coincidence 7

... i first saw banana and i was like oh am gee and then even more oh am gee was that the fruit with banana was really coconut! totally omg alr. hahahha. and we tried to hide and pretend we din see them but in the end we saw each other so.. nvm. haha. and we alighted at the same stop and acknowledged each other's presence lol. so coincidental la.



this baodian is alr enuff baodian for any other day, so i was relieved that it was over and durian and i went over to vivo. firstly did some kinda shopping but din buy anything at all lol den had dinner. soon it was 10 plus and as we headed home, i was qt afraid to bump into banana and coconut AGAIN on the way back but i felt it was truely unlikely. haha. at harbourfront mrt, boomZZZZ...



Coincidence 8

... what the shit as if the day was not baodian-filled enuff, i met another fren, pear at the platform LOL. haha that was it. this is enuff of meeting ppl for today. gimme a peaceful trip home now, haha no offence at all din mean these ppl disturbed me it was just tiring to encounter so many things in one day.



So we left pear as it continued its journey on the NEL and we swapped over to the EW line. we boarded the train and all seems to be smooth untillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll...



... durian looked behind me and indicated that there was someone there AGAIN OMG. and i forced my tired self to turn around reluctantly and oh shit, I GOT TRICKED. hahah that was a good one as i could no longer take it. damn it was a shame to be tricked by the durian la zz. hahaha. but i could nv ever in my ever-creative and boundless imagination that at the next station...



爆点3 + Coincidence 9

... OHHHH MYYYY GOOOODNESS ITS REALLY THEM AGAIN. THE NIGHT SO LONG THE TRAIN SO LONG WHY MUST WE BUMP INTO EACH OTHER AGAIN OMGGGGG TOTALLY.... i was stunned and unable to react LOL. i just could not take it anymore alr la where got so qiao one!!!!!!!!!! walao its really scary sia.



having calmed down after a while, coconut banana durian and i headed back home and gratefully, that was the end of a very long day spanning across more than 15 hours and so many coincidences and overwhelming 爆点s.



phew. tired sia. lollll

POTD 19-03-10

Teh Bing (Y)

i din like to drink teh bing when i was younger, felt that it was a little bitter and the texture sucked. haha but as i aged, i liked it much more. There are many other things that we only learn how to appreciate/like when we grow older, and some things that we enjoyed while at a tender age, we could no longer relate while we approach adulthood. interesting indeed.

for example, i have recently felt that i longer have the liking for ice cream. i'm much more concerned abt how i look now den b4. i like beer while one sip would disgust me just two years back. i appreciate my parents a lot more now. and i dun like macs now as much as i LOVED it when i was in pri sch, haha..

there would be many reasons for these but the fact that one's preferences change over time is itself a topic which could be discussed endlessly about.

POTD 18-03-10

forget to put grayscale =X

曾經以為等待會改變甚麼

POTD 17-03-10

the scariest seat on a train LOL

Phrase of the day

if one chem engr can earn a lot of money.
then two chem engrs can earn a lot a lot of money.

(:

当

她 越来越小

反而显得无害

POTD 16-03-10

LT7A table. hmmmmm

POTD 15-03-10

sugar cane @ 85

lucky lucky

getting tired of hunting for students in dojo, esp when i can attract but being unable to catch them qt often, i decided to move on and get horrific mouse trap asap. lol... so i went to lagoon and my luck there was MUCH better!!

den i crafted the ship and boomZ!

hope my luck carries on!!

POTD 14-03-10

This morning went to take part in the North East run, 5km category. it supports Go Red for women which is aimed to rasie awareness for cadio diseases among ladies.

It was quite a good run, din go all out but took a comfortable jog actually, completed in a self-timed duration of 30'38. The timing is not very good but at a nice pace.

The negativity that came with this experience was that the run was held in pasir ris park and it was SMALL. lol. the paths were rather narrow as well cos it wasnt designed to hold such bigger crowds. it was also a humid and sunny sunday morning thus i was sweating like mad and feeling the stickinessssssss on my skin. hahaha..

another minus-point abt the race was the bag deposit area. I think it was rather disorganised and it looked as though they didnt arrange the bags in order of the numerical labels and the place was also very small and cramped. Perhaps so, it was obvious that they had a difficult time trying to locate runners' bags at the time of collection. it took them qt some time to find my bag and i was waiting there feeling all sticky and just couldnt wait to get away from that area la..

one interesting encounter i had:

at the start, before the race i went over to the drink station to get a drink cos i was feeling a bit thirsty and dry, but then one uncle manning the station looked at me and realised that i hadnt started running.. so he kinda told me to get the drink (in cups) after the run and the reason he gave, which i was qt amused at, was that it would make his their job easier. o.O right? haha but at the pt of time i was more amused den annoyed. hahhaa. damn lame i feel its not right to say so and just to make ur life easier u ask ppl not to get the drink? hmmmm..

also, at the drinks station they poured water, and presumably ice and 100 plus into huge tubs and then distributed the diluted drink using jugs, into cups. i felt that it was rather unhygienic and not v clean, the drink wasnt very nice as well, i guess the proportion used in mixing was not uniform..

This device at the back of the number tag was also qt unprofessional but still acceptable haha. just that its a bit hard and cannot bend, but it gave minimal discomfort.

But the medal (refer to pic above) was nice and the details that came along were cute. nice eh?

the next run is probably passion run in may, still a long way to go! haha there was a run being promoted this morning but its like on the 25th April, which is one day before my mkt final paper! lol.

POTD 13-03-10

somehow, i always think siew mai = cute. haha.

当我

当我想说,
又不能说.

我只好忍着，压抑着.

当我说了,
你也不懂。

我只好忍着, 压抑着.

donation

cannot tahan anymore lol. this should have been done two days ago and maybe now im crafting my ship alr laaaa. S$ 1.44

POTD 12-03-10

i love dojo.
these two days have been GREAT.

POTD 11-03-10

http://gregqualls.com/2008/05/22/why-is-the-grass-always-greener-on-the-other-side/

LONELY SINGLES @ CKB.COM

POTD 10-03-10

hahaha once again, i hit 99.98 %. This time round it would take even loooonger to reach the next 99.99% lol.

Hero loh!

Re: POTD 08-03-10 (猜猜猜)

POTD CCC 005

Answer: Switch

POTD 09-03-10

却比想象复杂.

dun despise others

sometimes, u despise others.

but stop. and think, who are you to do so?

what rights do u have to despise.



sometimes, i think too highly of myself.

or rather think too poorly of the world.

i think that im the only one who (____something good____)

who am i to think so, i have to remind myself.

they are so many ppl who are much more outstanding.

something about something.

it has really been a long time since i "pen-ed" my thoughts down on my blog, which was one of the primary reasons why i own a blog anw originally.. many times, i do want to leave some words here but usually i end up not doing so, or just by posting my daily POTD haha. today i shall leave some words here.

likely, if u are reading this, that u will not get the full story or not understd a single thing im typing, but thats qt normal. haha of cos unless u are ME. yeah, just want to get some things on my computer/blog and hopefully i "feel better" or something after that. if u dun understd, just heck it and dun ask too much cos if u know u know, if u dunno u dunno (: pls dun ask me to "explain".

many times i feel like im actually very alone. i dunno if anyone really understands me, cos even me myself dunno why im like this sometimes. and i love to do stupid things to myself that i actually feel its not stupid. but after a while i think its dumb, yet i dun regret it. see, now i've confused myself too. lol.

i have alr promised myself to do something after this long sem, but i dun really know if i can make it. i dun feel confident, and this sux. many of my thoughts all originate from me myself thinking too much and using my brain juice on something not really productive i would say. and this few days i really just feel like taking action. but i'm holding myself back for i know v well the consequences.

ppl say, once bitten, twice shy. now that im older, i guess its even more shy for me. but i keep faith in myself and still believe in what i believe in. i still believe. very well, i guess i still have to do it sooner or later, so it has to be sooner but not that soon. easier said than done. i have lost the passion and desire to just do it. spontaniety. lost. i feel im just holding myself back. reason? unsure.

its weird. how much it affects me and my life now, but how insignificant it is to someone else. i just want it to work.. will it? only time will tell?

school is not easy as well.. difficult times in tests/lectures/tuts keep me alert and not allow me to dwell too long upon relatively less impt issues at the moment. i cant mug, thats understood, but i have to learn to understd and study more. to control my emotions and let my brain take over from my heart. it is impt to learn how to do so isnt it? but personally, no matter how hard i want it to, i cant convince myself that logic over emotion is the way to go. thats why i say im quite a girl inside. i think im qt emotional and make decisions based on my emotions often. and i also would not want to convince myself to use my brain all the time, cos thats not wad i believe in as well. letting my heart rule me is a way of ensuring that im still sane, and im reminded that im but human.

i like studying for tests. the adrenaline rush, the confidence i get when i go in, its rather satisfying.. but of cos, the disatisfaction from not being able to get the answers works the other way round.

losing direction in life is pathetic. and i think im pathetic. whats ruling me now is ****** and *****. which is not very correct. of cos *** *** and *********. its kinda sad.

i look fwd to that very day in the future. when i can get wad i really want.

meanwhile, i guess its back to work.

不能握的手

POTD 08-03-10 (猜猜猜)

POTD CCC 005

(should be easier le bahhh hahaha)

POTD 07-03-10

no words needed.

祸不单行

earlier this morning. 0130 - 0330. man u vs wolves. scrappy one-goal win.



this morning. 1009. mousehunt hourly check at 10am. second time alr.




1030. call. YOU HAVE BEEN RECALLED.

POTD 06-03-10

injured finger =((

things that made me happy today

an old friend.
an sms.
a stupid face.

POTD 05-03-10

primary sch art folio XD

POTD 04-03-10

hahaha among my pile of recycled papers i often find "treasure". this time its my book review in sec 2 lit. hahaha.. not v good english.

things that made me happy today

a cute smile.
an email.
a good soup.

POTD 03-03-10

yayyyy my first one million gold haha. zz but still owe money and need to za to advance so hahaha cant be rich for long man.

POTD 02-03-10

nightsnack =D

POTD 01-03-10

CARLING CUP WINNERS 2010!!

POTD 28-02-10

(end july 08) the last time i was at the resort island other than that time for army/chess camp. haha to the beach soon!

POTD 27-02-10

stupid donkey vs 五个小白痴 (on 初二)
lol.

POTD 26-02-10

The night when i skipped my antibiotics (postponed for a few hrs actually )for the jian and the beer. @ Timbre.

POTD 25-02-10

anw i feel the POTDCCC will not be an everyday issue since it is getting qt messy. but it will still continue to feature ocassionally, so thx for ur support haha.

on hindsight, i survived. so its time to do well.

RE: POTD 24-02-10 (猜猜猜)

POTDCCC 004:

Answer: fake bread!

haha total lame ben got it correct and still change answer!! and then mk say until so easy, but WRONG lol.

RE: POTD 23-02-10 (猜猜猜)

POTDCCC 003

Answer: laptop batt!