行医, lovely.

cant get enough of Phil & Claire or Phil & Luke

stop telling me things that i ntj.

you know, there is just some ppl that u just cannot stand it. and its getting worse. omt. zzzz. its not supposed to be like this, but the things you say leave me ntj. inside me i dun even bother replying or laughing. i hope it wasnt the case but it is. and its painful to see this happen. very different ideals, different frequencies. stop telling me these things which i dun wanna hear or have ntj, stop saying stuff that has no meaning, and, dont always impose ur own mindset onto others. leave some space, dont be too extreme. no one person is always correct. what u think is correct is not always correct. allow room for other ppl, other opinions etc.. please, its difficult to communicate u know, and its painful and sometimes irritating. and stop saying that u psm say. makes me wanna roll eyes.

dang, why am i so negative. haha i needa get some positivity back!

maybe your type just doesn't exist?

astrid, you said it.

70% girl, but i still dun understand 100% thems.

u know, ive been saying that im 70% girl for a few months alr, becos of the many ways i think i think/behave like a girl. but saying that, i still have to concede that im just a guy. and still a guy haha. and i still dun understand girls.

well, some time back i thought i did. or maybe i really do, but subconsciously i do not trust my instincts totally and feel that i might be wrong. thus eventually when my thoughts deviate from what i originally thought girls were thinking, i end up not understanding them.

there are many instances. and i shall not cover many of them now. just like to point out one. well sometimes i get a feeling that L is trying to distant herself as much away from me as possible. im guessing that she feels that i might be interested in her and she doesnt want to give me any false hopes or ideas. actually i just wanna know her better, dun really have other motives or what. if she keeps giving me this distance, i guess i should back off and not try to make things uncomfortable for her.

den again, some part of me has to decide when to give up trying. its a very difficult skill. if i stop now, den i think what might have been. if i keep going, things might end up ugly. if i ask ppl, they will tell me to go for it and i have nth to lose. or if u dun try u never know. yes thats true. but if she is pushing me away i should be more sensitive and not cause her more harm right? very difficult to understand girls. hahaha. maybe its because they dont believe that a guy can want to just be friends and know them better. or maybe guys really wont want that but im forcing myself to believe that? i dunno.

70% girl, but i dunno how a girl thinks. its likely because the 30% guy that i am allows me to be more thick-skinned and be able to take more initiative. for now, i think its a no.