a little emo

i was thinking yday night that i hadnt been really into the emo mode recently (guess due to being relatively busy and occupied in stuff like oweek) and that i might go into the mid sem emo mode which occured last sem.. i guess its just the time when u start feeling tired of your mundane life and think once again about what u really want/ reflect and realise that u have achieved so little.

and right after that, i was feeling a little bit emo today. not about like life this time, but about something else.

i wrote on fb:

"if u know u might be falling into the same hole again, do u pull yourself back and make sure you dont fall into the hole because you know why you shouldnt? or should you just fall back into the hole because there must be a reason why u keep falling in."

cos i thought i wouldnt be falling in alr, as it hurts and that there is a valid reason why i shld advoid the hole. but i realised its not that simple cos there are always two sides to a coin, and there is always positive and negative, pros and cons, good and bad. going with my heart naturally, i feel theres is still a dangling tendency in me. to walk towards the hole.

its pretty interesting to me, and im drawn towards it naturally. but i know its not the way it should go, just that i always tend to use my heart more than my brain and be a human rather than a robot.

i think about it, and its quite weird as well. i wonder wads gotten into me. haha.