POTD 15-09-10

had penang char kway teow @ aljunied yday. haha not too bad, altho the portion is a little small for $4.50.

im glad

im glad that the outcome is like this, nth surprising and and the truth is pretty good and nice to hear.

i feel relieved, and assured by the end-result.

think it went really well, and you agreed with me. which was impt.

but i dunno why u said so then, but did another just two hours on.

i felt refreshed and relaxed after it, but now, im feeling a little down and emo somehow.

but its gonna go away really soon.

i hope it will turn out how we want it to be.

my love

last week, i was on the way home from school. while taking the elevator at tanah merah mrt station from the platform level down to the ctrl station level, there was a man standing in front of me.

no, he is not my love. lol.

in the packed lift, my eyes surveyed the surroundings and i caught a glimpse of his handphone. he was texting at that moment and i saw the recipient of the sms. the msg on his nokia phone was abt to be sent to the contact saved as: "A my love wife"!!!

pretty sweet eh! the man was probably near his thirties. the "A" part shld be there so that this contact would be the first in his contact list (think: a gum tang) and instead of saving his wife's name as her actual name, or as "wife" or something, it was my love wife. haha i felt it was really nice and sweet. although it sounds wrong, probably meaning my love (wife) or my lovely wife, but it was still cool. i wonder if i would do such a thing next time hahhaha.

still

still very much on my mind.
once special, always special.

SBR/AHM run 12-09-10

went for singapore bay run 10km aka AHM 10km this morning. i haven been running for qt some time alr and was actually a little worried if i could last the race. haha luckily i did and completed it, with a self-timed 58 minutes. im glad the timing was still under one hr. last yr i chionged too early on lol and in the end walked, so timing was abt one plus 7 mins or something.

one thing i realised is that i couldnt pick up much speed as when i tried to accelerate to a higher velocity, i started feeling a bit of pain/strain in my chest/heart. im a little worried abt this!! hmm. i hope its becos i haven done much exercise recently. this is qt a problem for me becos now i don't dare to push myself, even slightly beyong comfort zone. i shall go for another run soon and monitor the situation.

once again, like always, it feels good after a run, sweating it out (:

open ur heart.

only when you sincerely open your heart,
let down your defence,
and let someone into your 内心世界.

can you make a friend feel truely important, trusted and loved.

POTD 09-09-10

A WILD LEGENDARY POKEMON APPEARED!

why is it so hard to be friends

why does it hurt, why is it so hard, to be friends.
just a friend, and its not easy. its sad, heart pain..
when you have different values, live in different worlds, different priorities.

once again, i confirm that wmshzbtsjldr.



stoopid gum.

why do i always feel im on the losing end of a friendship. is it because i expect too much?
today i had some time to think abt it, and the best reason is that we all expect different things from a friendship, we all value each other to a different extent and our definitions of friendship are too different. and becos we are of some age, and our core values and principles are already firmly established, its v difficult to change, or even influence someone alr.

thats why sometimes its ironic how i view friendship.



stoopid gum.

POTD 07-09-10

olive fried rice, wasnt too good :( hahaha the egg looks plastic right! like the toys of food we used to play!

POTD 05-09-10

haha ban mian frenzy, nowadays just feel like eating banmian whenever i see a stall lol.

this one's at koufu, kallang leisure park! not too bad.. also, i always see ppl eating ban mian with chilli sauce and i always wondered why they did that. cos i think its nice on its own and i haven tried taking it with chilli, just felt weird, outta place.

but today i tried and it was surprisingly good! haha this meal was pretty satisfying (:

just do it?

at first i had already dropped the idea of doing this.

now im sure of the situation and thought i was ready for this.

but uncontrollably i still have my doubts, is it really time? is it really gonna be okay?

for now, the answer is yes. but my mind will be running ard a bit im sure.

am i really happy?

thats a very good question.

indeed, before that moment earlier i was really laughing and entertained by it. actually to be entertained by it sounds a bit bad also, perhaps its more like i thought it was pretty interesting and funny. so while i was seeing and hearing and observing other things, i felt it was qt funny.

but then again, just now i was laughing, but somehow i think i came to a point when i wasnt really laughing from the bottom of my heart alr. hmm. i guess it could be becos i had made too much out of nth LOL and so i realised that it wasnt really that funny. but then again, wat mankey said really got me thinking. am i really putting on a show?

no, im not putting on a show. it was real. but, i thought abt it and i couldnt deny that there was still a little bit of me thats not really too happy abt it. hmmm. i guess its still not 100% gone yet.

but one things for sure, i know its not going to be wad i had thought it could be before, and now im thinking much much more neutrally. perhaps i hadnt got rid of it in my mind/heart totally, and i still think that those look a bit not too good, but im sure that i do not want wat i wanted some time ago.

talking in riddles/ encrypted scripts is one of my fav these days haha.

maybe im not really that happy, but at least im not sad, and my laughter is not fake.

POTD 01-09-10

cleared some of my clothes from my wardrobe on saturday, and these were the hangers that could be kept! i have quite a few clothes which i only like wore once or twice and then decided that i wasnt going to them them anymore! lol, i look at some, and think how did i even buy them in the first place o.O

lame?

with reference to my previous blog entry, I'm quite surprised to see that there are readers checking my entry as LAME. hmm. i wonder why. i would appreciate if they could tag on my tagboard to provide their opinion on this. I dun get why would someone think that that is lame! are you saying that its lame because u think im trying to create something out of nth by posting that status? or are u doubting whether im really a man of integrity. i wonder why.

but it does hurt to see ppl having such reactions to a truly honest status. i was feeling discouraged by integrity issues and even myself considered doing something that i would feel unhonorable to gain some marks. i somewhat disgusted by myself over this as well because i know i shld have been firm and not even considered that option. however i stood my ground and i appreciate the likes on fb that do, really, act as encouragement to me, reminding myself that i should do the right things.

i dunno wads so lame abt this.

POTD 31-08-10

the sci library toilet is qt special here! there is alternate taps that work manually or by sensor.